01.23.2026
The Divine Loft Offerings
The Divine Loft
“The Divine Loft is a creative art studio that blends astrology, birth doula services, and artistic expression into one holistic experience.”
“ Yeah, this one right here goes out
To all the baby's mamas' mamas
Mamas, mamas, baby mamas' mamas
Yeah, go like this”- Andre 3000
The Divine Loft was created by lived experiences, the sensuality of being a woman. Navigating motherhood while wanting to still experience womanhood. To be sexy and a mother at the same damn time. While stepping into my divine feminine a part of me had to learn that divine feminie is authenticity. That soft life that’s being sold, it based off perfection. Femininity is authenticity, to love yourself unconditionally. That’s what womanhood feels like, walking in your purpose unapologetically.
Stepping into that wholeheartedly meant I had to take myself seriously. I had to take my spiritual entrepreneurship seriously. Releasing the doubts that kept the The Divine Loft in my back pocket.
The Divine Loft Offering is exactly that — an offering for whoever needs it. A space to reflect, feel supported, and be held through womanhood and motherhood.
I have two wonderful souls that I’m guiding on this journey and I’ve experience what it feels like to give birth in America without any support. The way these hospital systems are designed. Black women are led to feel unsafe and unsupported during that spiritual time of transition.
My First Pregnancy Experience
My due date was 07.08.2015………
I got into a 4 car accident, I was the third car in a small Mazda Millenia 1997.( I think) on 07.07.2015.
The universe reminds me to cherish life and enjoy the experience. In the moment of that accident, my conscience body didn’t matter. The only person I cared about was her. My daughter was pushing me to live to protect her. I got out of the car and begged for an ambulance, I was 9 months pregnant. I sat on the floor and cried…..It was too many emotions for me to even process.
Her safety was the only thing that mattered to me.
Police came and was in my face, I was annoyed.
I felt a sense of relieve once I was behind an ambulance.
“ I don’t give a fuck about me, check the baby” I screamed
I’m sitting on a bed in the hallway of the hospital, no privacy. Nurses look exhausted and there is an emergency at least every 45min. It just seems so chaotic. It felt like a panic attack worse nightmare. It took that hospital almost 3 hours to get me into a room, to monitor my child heartbeat to bring some sense of emotional safety to my nervous system. To confirm, gratefully what spirit already confirmed for me that my child was indeed okay. While waiting in that chaos, I closed my eyes and imagine the water and seeing my baby smile was the confirmation I needed. Closed my eyes and said a prayer of gratitude. We both have life, thank you Jah for it.
right then and there I felt a kick. My girl is alive and well.
After about three hours, I’m in the Maternity Deparatment watching re-runs of WildNOut as they monitor my babies heartbeat. Laying on the bed with a cranberry juice and a turkey sandwich from the cafeteria, tomorrow is my due date. I might as well just stay here and give birth right? I asked the nurse those exact questions “tomorrow is my due date doesn’t it make sense that I stay overnight to just be monitored maybe we can start labor now” She looked confused and said she would relay the message to the doctor. The doctor walks in and tells me no, and that I can go home because my babies heartbeat is fine. Emotionally I didn’t want to go home, I felt as if my daughter was supposed to be borned around that time. Divine timing is beyond my control.
The day of that accident, I felt a emotion I had no clue exist within me. To protect the ones I love, to make sure my daughter is okay. Like motherhood was instilled then activated that day, I subconsciously realized that I didn’t know what emotional safety felt like. What it feels like to be loved and nurtured for from a genuine place? That emotion of nurture, triggered me because while I was feeling it, I was questioning myself if anyone ever showed me this emotion from a genuine place. I’ve felt like a burden my entire life, so for me to feel this way about a human being I’ve never met.
I discovered what unconditional love felt like from the wombs of motherhood. That feeling of nurture was what pushed me to do the shadow work. Those sentiments opened up the clause of mother wounds and healing through it all. It was happening subconsciously as I was really navigating life. That car accident was a reality check….. a reset to my nervous system that being pregnant was not as cliche as society makes it to be. As your carrying a spirit within you, a part of you have to die to become a mother. There is a maturity that grows during those nine months and it shapes those motherly instinct to protect and provide for your child.
That car accident was a reality check….. a reset to my nervous system that being pregnant was not as cliche as society makes it to be. As your carrying a spirit within you, a part of you have to die to become a mother. There is a maturity that develops during those nine months. A maturity to love another human being as much as you love yourself. To guide a soul to their highest good and let go of control. Thats the beautiful assignment as a mother.
Labor and Delivery
I sat on a thrifted couch in an apartment that was not ready for a new born in Camden NJ. The rugs were freshly washed and I was on the steps walking up and down, determined that this baby was coming tonight. I was tired of being pregnant, I was huge and just uncomfortable. The heart of the summer too I was so hottt! Just big, pregnant and hot. Ice was my best friend and clothes never saw me coming. Sitting in front of tI felt miserable. I was ready to get this child out of me. I stood at the top of the stairs and took a deep breath…..
I will be carrying a car seat up and down these stairs real soon. I’m tired of being pregnant I screamed to myself…. My due date was 07/08 and it was 07/16. I listened to someone advised and drank some castor oil……
and in 20 minutes my water broke.
I called a uber and went straight to the hospital.I was ready to give birth…….
Reached at the hospital and was told that my cervix is not dilated enough so I have to be monitored. Couple hours pass I’m contracting because of course they gave me pitocin and I’m not dilating.
About three more hours past and I’m in excrutiating pain and I’m dilated 3cm
The doctor comes in and tell me that I can get an epidural now if the pain is too severe and I said yes lets do it.
The anestologist comes in the room tells me the process and sets up to give me the epidural. Im scared shitless probably flenching and jerking. He then screams, you wanna be paralyzed? Keep still.
I then shut down and stayed still as he injected it into my back.
I then fell asleep for almost 15 hours.
I woke up to a doctor telling me that my daughter pooped inside of me and I now need to prep for an emergency C-section.
I had a C-section and all that entails in it and that felt so traumatic. Living through that my nervous system was on anxiety mode the entire experience.
That’s why Doula work means everything to me…..
No woman. No woman should feel that way during labor. that’s a sacred time and it deserved to be honored.
I remember going to Dr. Botanga (my pediatrician) office as a child. I was mesmerized by the ambience of the room. It was a vibe every time, people talking, children laughing and it felt like a wholesome community. The energy of children just being children, the community greetings. The fact that I know I’m here to feel better. It was one of the things I look forward to.
I didn’t become a pediatrician but I’m now a birth doula and thats close enough for me……..
The Divine Loft Offering
When a pregnant woman starts to have a anxiety attack, her womb begin to react the same way. Then in that moment, her baby feels those exact emotions. The exact shock, the exact tightness in her stomach, the brain racing and all the emotions of her concerns not being heard. I am unsafe here, is what her subconscious self is reacting to.
A unborn souls is already experiencing oppression to an extent by the energies and the mirror of mommy's emotions. From the womb..
When a black women concerns are not taking serious regardless of if she’s pregnant or not her subconscious self wants to flee to safety. This feeling normally comes to the forefront at doctor visit, hospital emergencies or while in labor.
Black women concerns go unaddressed because these systems were not build with us in mind. In pregnancy black women anxiety radiates at its highest peak when in proximity to these instituationalize systems. Leaving a doctor appointment more confused than when you walked in, can definitely bring on a trigger not just by the actual frustrations but by the epigenitics of that nature. The effect of trauma still lives within our DNA from slavery. The same shook our ancestors felt when they first heard a gun fire we still feel today. When our family members were raped and we knew but there was nothing we can do that pain still runs deep within our DNA. Epigenetics remind you that this treatment is not a new at all. As history repeats itself in now a more modern and acceptable way. The Divine Loft wants to bridge the gap between that. Your concerns should be addressed and you should feel safe during pregnancy. Your emotional safety matters and that’s what I want to provide for mothers.
“I trust my evolution and welcome creativity in every form it meets me.”
Creative Fashion Journey
This offering is reserved for paid members, as it holds personal and intimate reflections. This space follows my journey of stepping into authenticity — exploring what I love to wear, honoring my body, and challenging myself to grow into the version I envision.This is an intimate members-only experience. I’ll also be going live to talk about fashion as I become more seasoned and confident in this creative space.